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Name: Matthew Ennis
Country: Hong Kong
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Birthday: 3/14/1988
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Saturday, December 01, 2007

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 Winnie the "Be"

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So Cute ~~ ^3^


Friday, November 30, 2007

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Hey...my beloved "Ar Be /Freud " , You light up my life ......> <"

You mean everything to me...^3^ .......

I've eventually got what i want .......the one who I love and  loves me back...

 

狗狗的心底話 :

你準備好可以照顧另一條生命了嗎?

1) 在你把我帶回家之前,請記得,我的壽命約有10-15年;你的離棄,會是我最大的痛苦。

2) 請給我一點時間,讓我了解對我的要求是什麼。

3) 信賴我--那對我非常重要。

4) 請別對我生氣太久,也別把我關起來當作是懲罰。你有你的工作,你的娛樂,你的朋友。但你是我的僅有。

5) 請偶爾對我說說話,縱使我不懂你說的內容,但我聽得懂,那是你的聲音在陪伴我。

6) 你要知道無論你如何對待我,我將永遠不會忘記。

7) 當你打我時請記得,我其實擁有可以咬碎你手骨的尖銳牙齒,我只是選擇不咬。

8)當你因為責罵我的不合作、固執或懶惰之前,請你想想,是否有什麼正困擾者我︰或許我沒獲得我的食物,或許我已經很久沒在溫暖的陽光下奔跑,又或者我的心臟已經太弱太老。

9) 在我年老時請好好照顧我,因為你也是會變老的。

10) 當我要捱過最辛苦的歷程時,請千萬不要說︰「我不忍心看他。」或者「讓我不在場時才發生。」只要有你和我在一起,所有的事都會變得簡單容易接受請你永遠不要忘記,我愛你!

狗狗的愛是沒有條件的,牠不計較人的美醜,也不計較你的手不能動,牠已經準備好深愛著人類,但人卻不懂得珍惜。

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Another "My beloved babe"

Can't believe i can race my dad's crappy car ( but i still luv it) to 100s km/h....So High~~~

Go GO GO ! I luv studying Coun PsY  as a Yan Chai......

 

Add oil for the final exam for this semester~~~ > <" 


Tuesday, February 20, 2007

假使快樂有盡頭....痛苦也未會

始終一天

曲/詞:林一峰
編曲:蔡德才@人山人海

始終一天 我會買隻手錶 始終一天 我會早點起身
始終一天 我會不再懶惰 不再遲到 ho no…
始終一天 我會收拾被窩始終一天 我會收拾壞蛋
始終一天 我會一次棄掉所有垃圾

始終一天我會比較愛自己
(愛 始終一天你會發覺我還愛得起)
你會羞愧自責 不珍惜我
想東想西想你定會想清楚
我也不再在意我應該得到幾多
忘掉你 揭了瘡疤 心魔放開
隨便作樂 隨便相愛
決心不會一改再改

始終一天 我會變更細心
始終一天 我會更有自信
始終一天 我會乾脆吃掉所有甜品 oh yeah
始終一天 我會勸你戒煙
始終一天 我會放過自己
始終一天 我會甘心接受不會被愛

Woo… 始終一天我有勇氣不欺騙自己
(愛 始終一天你會發覺我還愛得起)
你會羞愧自責 不珍惜我
想東想西想你定會想清楚
我也不再在意我應該得到幾多
忘掉你 揭了瘡疤 心魔放開
隨便作樂 隨便相愛 決心不會一改再改

始終一天 我會放棄再講…

I have learnt much this year...

And grown from the pain

well... may be it's not that exaggerated

but whatever , it's definitely the most crucial lessson that i have ever learnt

And i surely  have undergone a "conversion"

what has been changed is not only the way i see this world

but also the way i see  lord's love towards me

I truely understand what does it mean to me

It does not mean that i can be excluded from things like sorrow ,frustrations,failure ...etc

But it does mean that i will not be alone whatever  i face

Because he is with me for better or for worse

 

"假使快樂有盡頭....痛苦也未會不朽"

   is what i actually learnt from this gloomy, versatile  year


Friday, January 05, 2007

I want to say it once again

i love you all ,

all of  my dear friends

What you have done to pull me through is just so much

And how it helps me is just  so untold....

the only thing i know is that you guys definately helped me to get through  my hardest year

The year i almost lost all of my strength inside(i used to think that i was so strong inside)

The year i got devastated by depression

The year i experienced my first panic attack

The year i lost my way to my ultimate goal

The year that i got abandoned/ deceived by persons who was important to me

Also the year i got frustration in getting my license

However, it's the year i know what the true meaning of

friends , and love

It's not the kind what the M.K people claim

It's the kind can be found in bible and confucian


Panic attack

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

A panic attack is a period of intense, often temporarily disabling, sense of extreme fear or psychological distress, typically of abrupt onset. Though it is often a purely terrifying feeling to the sufferer, panic attacks are actually an evolutionary body response often known as the fight-or-flight response occuring out of context. Symptoms may include trembling, shortness of breath, heart palpitations, chest pain (or chest tightness), sweating, nausea, dizziness (or slight vertigo), hyperventilation, paresthesias (tingling sensations), vomiting, and sensations of choking or smothering. During a panic attack, the body typically releases large amounts of adrenaline into the bloodstream. Many first time sufferers of a panic attack believe they are dying or going insane. It is a feeling that cannot be described until one has had an attack. Many say panic attacks are among the most frightening experiences of their lives. Repeated and apparently unprovoked panic attacks may be a sign of panic disorder, but panic attacks are associated with other anxiety disorders as well. For example, people who suffer from phobias may experience panic attacks upon exposure to certain triggers. People with panic disorder often can be treated with therapy and/or anti-anxiety/depression medication.

Recreational drugs have also been known to provoke panic attacks in certain people.

 

[edit] Description

Most sufferers of panic attacks report a fear of dying, "going crazy", having a heart attack, fainting or losing control of emotions or behavior. These feelings generally provoke a strong urge to escape or flee the place where the attack began ("fight or flight" reaction) and, when associated with chest pain or shortness of breath, a feeling of impending doom and/or tunnel vision, frequently result in the sufferer seeking medical attention, often in an emergency room. Panic attacks have been linked to high quantities of acetylcholinesterase in the blood. Also the release of adreno-cortisols aid in catalyzing the panic attacks.

The panic attack is distinguished from other forms of anxiety by its intensity and its sudden, episodic nature. Panic attacks are often experienced by sufferers of anxiety disorders and other psychological conditions involving anxiety, though panic attacks are not always indicative of a mental disorder, nor are they uncommon. In fact some sufferers are not under any "fear" or any psychological illness but are under extreme amounts of stress and anxiety resulting in a panic attack or an anxiety attack. Up to 10 percent of otherwise healthy people experience an isolated panic attack per year, and 1 in 60 people in the U.S. will suffer from a panic disorder at some point in their lifetime.

When the sufferer experiences more than four bodily symptoms it is said that they have had a full blown panic attack while experiencing four or less symptoms constitutes a limited symptom attack.

[edit] Duration

A panic attack typically lasts ten minutes according to the American Psychological Association. More severe panic attacks may form a series of episodes waxing and waning every few minutes, only to be ended by physical exhaustion and sleep.

In conditions of chronic anxiety, one panic attack can roll into another, leading to nervous exhaustion over a period of days.

[edit] Trigger

People with phobias will often experience panic attacks as a direct result of exposure to their trigger. These panic attacks are usually short-lived and self-limiting, as they will subside once the trigger is no longer present.

Hyperventilation alone can bring about some of the symptoms of a panic attack. However, the person experiencing the panic attack often does not realize this and sees these symptoms as further evidence of how serious their condition is. An ensuing positive feedback loop of adrenaline release fuels worsening physical symptoms and psychological distress.

In some rare cases, using marijuana can trigger moderate to severe panic attacks in its users. Panic attacks induced by marijuana usually influence the user to seek medical treatment.

[edit] Biological explanation

The various symptoms of a panic attack can be understood as follows. First, there is the sudden onset of fear with little or no provoking stimulus. This leads to a release of adrenaline (epinephrine) which brings about the so-called fight-or-flight response where the person's body prepares for major physical activity. This leads to an increased heart rate (tachycardia), rapid breathing (hyperventilation), and sweating (which increases grip and aids heat loss). Because strenuous activity rarely ensues, the hyperventilation leads to a drop in carbon dioxide levels in the lungs and then in the blood. This leads to shifts in blood pH which in turn can lead to many other symptoms, such as tingling or numbness, dizziness, and lightheadedness. It is also possible for the person experiencing such an attack to feel as though they are unable to catch their breath, and they begin to take deeper breaths, which also acts to decrease carbon dioxide levels in the blood.

[edit] Symptoms

[edit] Physical

[edit] Mental

  • The loss of the ability to react logically to oncoming stimuli
  • Loss of cognitive ability in general
  • Loud internal dialogue
  • Impending doom

[edit] Emotional

  • Terror, or a sense that something unimaginably horrible is about to occur and one is powerless to prevent it
  • Fear of losing control
  • Fear of death
  • Fear of going crazy
  • Flashbacks to earlier panic triggers

[edit] Perceptual

[edit] Mnemonic

The symptoms of a panic attack can be remembered with the mnemonic: STUDENTS FEAR the 3 Cs: Sweating, Trembling, Unsteadiness/dizziness, Derealization/depersonalization, Elevated heart rate (tachycardia), Nausea, Tingling, Shortness of breath,FEAR of dying, FEAR of losing control, FEAR of going crazy, 3 Cs - Choking, Chest pain, Chills.


[edit] Agoraphobia

Main article: Agoraphobia

People who have had a panic attack in certain situations, for example, while driving, shopping in a crowded store, or riding in an elevator — may develop irrational fears, called phobias, of these situations and begin to avoid them. Eventually, the pattern of avoidance and level of anxiety about another attack may reach the point where individuals with panic disorder are unable to drive or even step out of the house. At this stage, the person is said to have panic disorder with agoraphobia. This can be one of the most harmful side-effects of panic disorder as it can prevent sufferers from seeking treatment in the first place.

[edit] Panic disorder

Main article: panic disorder

People who have repeated attacks or feel severe anxiety about having another attack are said to have panic disorder. Panic disorder is strikingly different from other types of anxiety disorders in that panic attacks are often sudden and unprovoked. An episode is often categorized as a positive feedback loop where the mental symptoms increase the physical symptoms, which increase the mental symptoms, and so on.

[edit] Treatment

Benzodiazepines like diazepam, lorazepam, alprazolam or clonazepam can be prescribed to be taken at the onset of the panic attack. Sometimes, the psychological knowledge of knowing that such medication is close at hand may be enough to prevent the panic attack. However, this form of treatment may be considered unfavourable by some doctors, because of the potential for abuse. Additionally, benzodiazepines will not treat the cause of the panic attacks. As such, some doctors may prefer to prescribe an antidepressant, particularly an SSRI (such as paroxetine or sertraline), which after an initial titration period may be effective at reducing anxiety. NaSSAs such as mirtazapine have also been found effective, particularly with individuals whose anxiety and panic causes insomnia. Individuals can also treat themselves during panic attacks by breathing into a paper bag (to decrease effects of hyperventilation) and/or using ice on the face (rubbing with an ice cube, washing face with icy water on washcloth, dipping face into bowl of ice water) to stop the physiological reactions. Panic attacks are completely treatable and can be overcome with the correct combination of medication and therapy.



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